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Thursday, 17 September 2009

  • overall since my last post, there has been drama and some tears, but overall i've been happy.
    but the past two days have seen an overwhelming sense of sadness... i feel it deep within my soul.

    i don't even know how to put it into words.
    it just does. not. feel. good.

    it's weird how i always post on here when i'm really sad. i swear to you, i have good days.

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Sunday, 10 May 2009

  • my family is going to turn me into a chain smoker.
    scratch that,
    cathy is.


    i've fucked up mothers day apparently.
    but hey, one day i won't be here to do that.


    i'm thinking that i probably didn't turn out how they wanted me to.
    but i'm way over that.
    i don't want to adjust to them.
    there's a point where "honor thy father and mother" turns ludicrous.
    why won't they just let me be?
    i want to be becky. becky anne.
    we'll debate the "ritchie" part.

    i'm going to be the black sheep girl.
    i hope.


    i don't want to be fine and upstanding if it means having to subject my brain to your further bullshit.